I’m feeling terrible. Progress on my song about hair removal has hit a brick wall. Just when I was doing so well, things have started to fall apart. I’ve experienced this before, so I should have known what to expect. Self doubt has crept in and is making some pretty good arguments about why this composition is such a bad idea.
Maybe you know what I mean, when you have a lightbulb moment about doing something, and you start off your new project full of energy and gusto? I find that I get carried along on a wave of adrenaline that makes me feel invincible. I get so far down the line only to start thinking that maybe it wasn’t such a good idea after all. The reasons why my project is bound to fail suddenly seem so obvious that I wonder was I mad in the first place. No matter how much time I have invested in the project, cutting my losses and abandoning it mid flow usually becomes an appealing get out clause. I have lost count of how many times this has happened to me. Sometimes the ideas come back to haunt me later and they seem really good again. What if I had just followed them through – what’s the worst that could have happened?
I thought that my body hair issues and struggles with hair removal might provide an interesting and thought provoking subject for a song. As an artist, I know that I must be open to baring my soul to further my career. It comes with the territory. A hit song that stands the test of time is always driven by emotion, and causes an emotional response in the listener too. Of course, there are other important elements as well. A good song has a distinctive rhythm, beat, riff or melody that immediately appeals to the listener and becomes ingrained in their mind. It might have a predominant certain instrument. A well crafted track has a central theme the whole way through that captures’s the listener’s attention. I want my new record to be the song that people can’t get out of their heads, the one that they turn up the radio for, sing along to, and ultimately buy on CD or download. Nothing less will do.
So What’s The Problem?
It’s not a shortage of musical inspiration that’s the problem, if anything I’ve got too many possibilities on that score. Happy or sad, fast or slow, pop, rap, rock, classical, country, disco or ballad? A mash up may be in order. Hey, actually that could be really cool!
My nemesis is the hairy big cloud hanging over me. What if people don’t understand what I’m trying to say about my body hair and why it means so much to me to remove it? If I get laughed at and mocked, it will achieve nothing and possibly make my situation worse. Maybe I should just keep my contribution to the music industry under wraps and save myself a whole lot of bother. My bikini line may never achieve Hollywood status. But what if it does?